MY WONDERFUL HORRIBLE LIFE

today

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 22:39:18 GMT

today i sat and viewed random videos on skateperception.
me and alex and robby skated last night.
i hadnt skated a spot with robby in a while.
i think its because we work right next to eachother now.
well we went to trinity.
alex tried to nollie the 3 flat 3 about 500 times.
he almost died.
well then i cam home. then i woke up this morning in a good mood.
i feel. not so shitty now.
i think im gonna have the money to get my license back tomorrow.
then i can get the video finished and my movie filmed finally.
i have work tonight at 8 which is good. i need cash.
i think im ready to fall in love with my life again.

im floating upon the surface for the birds

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 23:39:13 GMT

i have come to a conclusion.

i am not myself anymore and i hate it.

i still love all of my friends and i stopped expressing it.

i quit smoking.

i quit being an asshole.

i quit being completely carefree about school/friends/work/myfuture.

im trying to get myself going in the right direction again.

i want your love again. because i miss it.

its killing me.

heres a thought

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 14:01:40 GMT

well saturday was fun. uhm, everyday since then has been fun. i hung out with brandon, steff, taryn, carrie, and adam like all day yesterday. me steff and taryn went to this kids chris' house last night. that was pretty fun. other then that idk. i havent done any skating in the past few days. i cant get my xv out of the shop which is annoying me alot. TTYL

hmmmm

Tue, 24 May 2005 01:02:16 GMT

today
woke up
went out with shannon
went to my moms
went to sonic
came home
waited for austen
went to erics
went to circuit city
went to the mall
went to erics
jim showed up
played skated for a while
came home
listen to dinosaur jr.
kayleigh is THE best.

i wanna help you
im not gonna breakdown anymore.

bah

Thu, 19 May 2005 01:59:01 GMT

im trying to post everyday again like the old days i suppose.
well i woke up late today. around 2.
then i sat around pretty much all day.
josh came over and then we went to the skatepark.
i landed absolutely nothing good.
well then i came home.
me and MY janelle are stargazing saturday night.
im excited.

i never thought a rubber doll could be so hard to please.

i know youre out there

Wed, 18 May 2005 01:58:49 GMT

a few things: i have been doing a ton of thinking lately. about this place. i guess i dont really know how to word it right but i am going to try my best. its just, why is it the way it is? like i mean, i am a 17 year old kid. a child. we are all children. why am i dealing with this shit. i dont even go to school yet people still fucking gossip about me and how shitty of a person i am. im trying hard not to offend anyone with this one. im trying not to be an A-HOLE here. i.do.not.fit.the.status.quo.of.an.acceptable.human.being.in.this.fucking.nightmare. help me out. i want to kmow why i am a piece of shit because i do things you lemmings dont wanna do? i think i have fought long and hard to keep up a title as that clean cut sensitive guy for so long. i feel like im a 50 year old man. its time for me to come out here guys. yeh, so i smoke cigarettes? how does it affect you? ill tell you one thing, you wont be around me long enough to see me dying on a hospital bed. you wont be by my side. i want you to be by my side. i want you to stick around. dont let go of my hand. im having a hard time. i need your hand. i need you to tell me you love me and mean it. i wanna hear it leave your lips while i see your watering eyes and while you are grasping me like a lost lover. i dont wanna see it in a myspace comment. i never hear it anymore. i admit that i have issues. i am emotionally unstable right now. i mean i have dealt with alot during the course of 1 year. i have found love, lost it, found it again, then had it slap me in the face harder than anything ever will. i have felt my life come to screaching hault for other people selfish reasons. i have lost friends, i have lost all possible faith in my family. i dont film much anymore. i dont know, i have bad luck. 4 broken cameras in 2 months? all my chargers broke? tapes dissappeared? like i have alot of faith in god but i am trying to figure out why, if god is somehow up there laughing his ass off at my pathetic struggles, why does he make bad things happen? why does he let hearts break, and tears run. i just want to meet him one day. i want god to walk though my front door any day of the week in any shape or form and explain to me why he made it this way. why would any other feeling but love and happiness even be present? man. i dont know why i harp on shit like this but it bugs me so much. i am being thrown around like a ragdoll. a fucking ragdoll. i want my life back. i want to love and be loved back, forever.

video parts and wigwams.

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 18:12:33 GMT

well it has been rough past week. im getting down the finally couple months of filming for indian houses, my new video. and i guess it has been a little hectic lately. alot of phone calls on video part songs and placement of footage and late nighters on school nights. but its looking ok. weve been getting bangers filmed all week. alex musa kickflipped the shit out of eckard gap, jason got some tricks down it. robby finally got footage! its just been crazy. weve all been just trying to get as much as we can. expo was today. im pretty sure jason got some more sponsors. im pretty sure i will get recognizable credit for the editing. i made it all artsy fartsy and shit. well yeh, as much as i hate to say it, its not looking like eric miller will be having an actually video part. probably just in the friends section. and the same is going for jesse valasquez. well thats all for video updates. look for it in late febuary!

as much as life goes. its not going so incredible. uhm, my mom hasnt really been to happy with the way ive been lately. she told me i was a loser and i need to cut my hair. my sister shannon hates me becuase all of my friends do cocaine and i dont stop hanging out with them. my sister erin got caught with weed hahahaha, i find it funny but no one else does. my dad actually seems to give a shit about me now. he told me i was gonna have alot of troubles when im older if i dont go to college and all that good stuff. and hes actually kinda seeming like he wants to help me out. i guess im moving to dc in late febuary. that aught to be splended. i just need to get out of here, and get on with the rest of my life. im thinking eric is going too? as far as girls... hmmm girls, danielle i think pretty much hates me now. which to tell the truth i honestly dont care at all, and then theres still katie, that i dont know what to say about, i am just a little worried about the danielle situation. but i guess i can come off as an asshole when some is screaming at me and calling me a fucking douche bag and not letting me say what i need to say..

thats my update for a while. oh yes, and i love billy marks and ryan gee.

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 03:31:45 GMT

well. here is my photography.

Fri, 31 Dec 2004 21:01:01 GMT

well well. here i sit in my little computer chair listen to music and bored as hell. me and adam just consumed a hefty meal from sonic and skated a little. new bearings! yayyyyy! well i guess thats all. i love having to work for new years. it makes my teeth chatter in excitement. bye!

youve got kissability.

Mon, 27 Dec 2004 04:06:01 GMT

Keep on runnin' in the dark
Dude ranch dream is fallin' apart
Stolen kisses let's pretend my friend
You play sick and I will mend
Let the action begin again my friend
You be patient and I'll attend

Let's rehearse let's do it again
Dude ranch nurse yr brand new friend

Let nurse give you a shot it's something to do
Took my pulse
Let nurse give you a shot it's something to do
I could love you I could love you

Deep sleep coming along
Like a newborn colt you found
You're wrapping around the gauze
Dizzy reminder
Ouch she found

Let nurse give you a shot, don't slip too far
I could love you
I could have you

You be cowboy and I'll allow
Let me ride you 'til you fall
Let's pretend there's nothing at all
Nobody knows the shape I'm in
Kiss me now it's just a sin
Nobody knows the shape I'm in

skated a little today
got a line filmed
hung with austen
came home
went out with eric and lundquist
got a gun
airsoft that is
shot stuff
came home

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 15:19:45 GMT

hm. im sitting here. and talking to amberly. im emo and everyone hates me. fuck. got high as fuck friday? helllll yeh.

we dont give a fuck. we dont give a fuck. we dont give a fuck.

me and amberly representin 13th century bank robbas for life. you know how we do. route 66 motha fuckin 6.

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 03:18:00 GMT

well. i guess i didnt get it all out w that last post. i have alot to say about my retarded feelings and stuff. well here it goes. i am going to storefront for the remainder on the school year. which is ok i guess. well then theres katie. and how ive realized im not getting her back. i hate being in love. its terrible. this is so retarded. my whole fucking life is falling apart. im letting my whole family down w school, i dont even have my gf anymore, and. fuck. this is all just fucked up. and now you all prbly think im a piece of shit becuase i used curse words. and all you kids who are out drinking, and doing coke, and fucking your boyfriend think thats too much to bare. well the thing is i dont give a shit anymore. i am done trying to impress everyone becuase over the coarse of the last 4 years at dhs it has gotten me a measly title. a title that im not satisfied with. the thing is, me being a "good christian" and not fucking the brains out of every girl i get a chance to have sex with and not doing coke every friday with my friends, and holding in all of my anger, and aggression, and all of my sadness, has gotten me nowhere. i only have to deal with all of this bullshit for a short ammount of time longer. i dont think anyone understands. actually. i think you all understand. but you are all too good to tell everyone how you truly feel. and youre all affraid to tell everyone how you feel because you dont want to have all your friends turn on you like what has happenned to others in the past. you want to be accepted. you want to be known as the person you have molded yourself into for the pleasure of your viewers. becuase its all just a sitcom. and then we go home and cry at night. we all sit here on our computers and we become these little emo vegetables. becuase THATS WHAT WE ARE. we all have our secret identities. well heres my identity. heres ME. i go to school everyday and i hope that people arent making fun of me. i try sooo hard to make everyone laugh to distract them from how bad i look. some say i dont look bad, but i interpret it as them being nice so i dont feel bad, becuase they need one more friend to make them feel better in their everyday lives. i slack off in school because i am not interested at all. my dad is interested. the only reason i pass is becuase it is what my dad wants and we all know that if i do not impress my dad then my fucking life is officially fucked. then, i have to keep down my cussing becuase i have to look like a good christian. the key there was "look like". i am a good christian, and i have now realized that looking like one doesnt fucking matter. and singing in church and not cussing isnt going to impress god. the only thing that will impress god is being nice to people and thinking he is real. i guess i then go home and i sit here and i think in my head how i need to get skinny but in actuality i dont need to, i just want too look good for the viewers. i go skating, becuase it is the only thing in life that truely makes me happy. it is prbly the only thing that ever will. then i go home to my sick demented family that tries to look perfect and begs me to join them but i dont let myself become that judgemental of everyone around me. my step mom is a psychotic bitch and only wants my dads money. my dad is my step moms bitch due to the fact that she has a vagina and her name is on the title of our house [that he pays for]. my step brother and step sister get all that they want, and i buy myself everything i want. my family and my life is so fucked up. well i feel alot better after doing that. and i know everyone thinks im a piece of shit now.

goodbye

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 02:19:01 GMT

well today was ok. kyle, robby, andrew, paul, austen, kevin, kenny, and alex came over to chill. then we went to pipe dreams and i got a deck. they had no grip so we gripped up at metro. then me and robby got lines at [the spot]. it was rad. thats all. then i came home.

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 01:53:28 GMT

i did these pictures exactly 1 year ago today. listening to this exact same song.

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 02:58:02 GMT

MY PLUG IN BABY, CRUCIFIES MY ENEMIES.

blah blah blah

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 01:39:55 GMT

well. just got home from stone edge with jason. good sesh. well lately ive been pretty "chill"? alot of good skating. i got a promo done FINALLY. look for that on tv on the run friday kiddies. hmmmmm. well idk. i dont really have anythign to say. im really relaxed. im talking to katie. i love that girl. uhm, well i guess all i have going on is, i feel less stressed out then usual. my life is going good. im missing one element but im trying not to care too much about her.

i smoke chewy like a motherfuckin nut
you gotta gram bag, get the zags and roll 'er up...

ehr

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 01:51:01 GMT

too bad. .i miss her

[i saw stars.]

blah

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 01:22:09 GMT

well. i guess im kinda, not so happy. i guess ill just update about whats been happenning.

good footy
stereo premiere
skated with ryan nix
katie broke up with me
im depressed.

i guess ive never really been so bummed out about a girl. well i dont know whats happenning. im trying my hardest not to sound like a little bitch. but i love katie. i just wish i could still say she was mine.

i cant win.

you think things move pretty fast out here?

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 02:50:10 GMT

well. i guess i havent updated in a little bit. well yeh heres goes my day.

went to school.
went home.
eric and josh came over.
josh totally fucked his car up.
i fixed it.
went to booster park.
skated.
got yelled at.
i almost ollied the big gap.
skated.
got switch flips.
eric got his weed.
came home.
called katie.
"worked things out".
hung up with katie.
sat here waiting to get on the computer.
called amberly.
worked out my wrist.
i hurt it skating.
got on here.
edited a few photos.
I LOVE KATIE.

cant you see im trying
i dont even like it
i just lied to
get to your apartment
now im staying
here jsut for a while
i cant think cuz im just way too tired

sad theyd give you
anything you ever wanted
when they lied i knew it was just
stable children trying
hard not to realize
i was sitting right behind

oh dear cant you see
its them its not me
we're not enemies
we just disagree
if i was like him
all pissed in this bar
he changes his mind
says i went to far
we all disagree
i think we should disagree

is this it.
is this it.
is this it....

boobledee beebledee blop

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 01:34:58 GMT

well today today today, quite a day. i dont update much but heres an attempt for whoever is bored enough to be reading this.

well i went to school and forgot i had AE for being late about a week ago so they gave me 3 days which sucks. then i came home and i was supposed to hang out with katie but her mom supposedly flipped out and took her home for no reason. well then i tried to coordinate a skate day and kevin eric and everyone else were all doing shit today. so i decided to go up to dbcc and skate alone i practiced some lines and such that i would like to get filmed soon but i doubt it will ever happen. then on my way home i ran into aimee who was bummed out about kevin now hanging w/ her today. so we chit cahtted for a bit then i went home and sewed a couple ripped pairs of pants.

Emerica9987: hey
QueQuaEm: what
Emerica9987: what are you doing?
QueQuaEm: sitting on the computer
Emerica9987: nice
QueQuaEm: what else would i be doing
Emerica9987: i dont fucking know
Emerica9987: dick
Emerica9987: later
QueQuaEm: :-*
QueQuaEm: bye
Emerica9987: cute
QueQuaEm: ed
Emerica9987: i love you sweety
QueQuaEm: love you too
QueQuaEm: my lil pumpkin penis head

well, eh, heres the mental portion of my day. i woke up feeling like shit from work last night. then i went to school feeling like shit and feeling ugly and feeling very....staired at. then to find out details about some party friday that are gay. everyone is gay. i felt shitty all day but tried to be the happy person that i play in my soap opera called deltona highschool. people have been bugging me all day. about video parts, and fotoage, and me not talking to them, and me seeming different today. well the only thing keeping me happy all day was knowing i was going to hang out with katie today after school and that didnt even happen. i felt even shittier after that.

i got home and i kinda realized that i have officially lost eric and josh. they started out beign my 2 best friends and now we barely talk which is a load of shit. eric skated from his house to danielles to try and get a piece of ass when he was supposed to be skating with me that day and he wont even skate over here today to skate with me as if we arent tight as fuck. jeez that kid pisses me off sometimes. his life is wrapped up in girls and weed which is gay as hell im tired of trying to get him back becuase only he can change how effed up everything is.

i guess thats all.

redbulladdict54: i always forget u and adam are brothers cuz u get along so good

MannaSkate88: him, dennis, and i are meeting on wednesday in the youth room. me and dennis are gonna play Time Is Running Out for him so he knows how good we are8-)
Emerica9987: haha
Emerica9987: stuck up piece of shit
MannaSkate88: :-*

Tru Scarface 32: hey beautiful
Tru Scarface 32: your gangster

turn and face the strange......

eric. from large to small.

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 02:02:10 GMT

well to start off. im pissed. me and eric didnt skate today as planned. what a fuck. well here it goes ERIC. ALL THAT SHIT THAT GETS IN THE WAY OF OUR "FRIENDSHIP" DOESNT COMPARE TO THIS. i was going through your old lj and these are pretty much every memory i have with you for like a year. have fun bitch monkey. after this ill tell you bitches about my day,

4/20/04-now

ryan (mr browning) is all flipping out at me because im turning emo on him but i refuse to admit but i can any longer...so i dont know whats going on its weird i guess...i plan on trying to skate today cause skating is the ONLY thing to keep my head off girls/relationship bull crap but ohwell....i dont know im most likly sleeping cause im a pimp......so yea uhh i guess im out..prob gonna try to skate with ryan or spencer friday cause its been awhile soo i dont know ....im out

hmm well for some reason i feel like shit...AGAIN...it fucking sucks ass...i have plans to go skating with ryan tomorrow night..

but yea anyway i think im goin skating with ryan tonight most likly orange city but its ok....im gonna try to get the same ol crew to join us downb there but i doubt anyone will go..soo yeah im out

so yeah....uhh for those of you that care, my "love life" i guess you could call it has been fine even for the fact im single im happy where im at with all my lady friends...besides i need to get my priorities striaght like mr browning....

catchy title eh? well today i stayed home to work on my zoology project then uhh after school let out me spencer ryan and austen went skating at jena medical...ryan almost did the drop he could of if he tryed a lil harder but next time hell get it...

well lets see uhh yesterday i stayed home which was boring i had to work on my project..bleh then ryan spencers and austen came over and we went skating then i came home and talked with everyone...

...then i went home and started on the origin website....for those of you who dont know what that is..its a production team that consists of people from the "SHEAR BOREDOM" skate video yep yep nig what...that should be done in a few weeks..yeah...so now im sitting in school being bored....

Honestly heres what i would do...i would wake up at 11 o clock im the afternoon and get everybody that means anything to me (spencer, darren, preston, ryan ,josh, kyle, adam, danielle, austen, tasha, amanda, amberly..ect) ...and i would go up to winn dixie on deltona blvd and just skate the whole day and chill out there like i used to with the boys...just chill out man.. then i would prob go up on the roof and just lay up there looking at the pitch black sky... and just stare at the stars and talk..and this probably sounds gay but i would have to be raining..and we all would have at least 3 packs of smirnoff with us and some pot....and we would just chill and smoke and drink and just talk about everything like how we all met and the shit we have all been through and all the stuff like that....and just chill....and we would all just stay up there till the morning and right b4 i leave i would probably just i dont know what i would do because it would be last minutes thing...but it would be weird..and then poof i would be gone...i cant say if i would want people to remember me or not...that would be totally up to them and if i was remembered for a long time by certian people then i would know i was important to them....you know what im saying...so yeah thats what i would do on my last day and night on earth...

Ryan-man you have been there for me since my sophmore year we go back man and no matter what happens between us we get over it.your an awesome person stay the way you are man

...then we skated the blvd for a lil and went to ryans house to see the video parts....its looking realy really good.. then we skated dbcc

RYAN-YOU WERE THERE FOR ME EVEN WHEN I DIDNT WANT YOU TO BE..WHAT ELSE COULD I SAY MAN I LOVE YOU

well today i woke up and automacitally was bored....so i waited for everyone to get home then bren me and elvis met up with alex ryan and seth...it was fun then paul and some kid came...GHETTO as ryan would say but what ever hahaha now im home and bored..

well today started off with some old friends stopping bye and basically kidnapping me, heh so i went to ryans with them and surprised ryan and we watched the origin video

Well today me,aj,kyle, and ryan went skating on deltona blvd...it was such a fun time wish it never ended....i cant believe how good we all are getting its sooo awesome, no one is striving to be better then anyone else we just all want to get better its soo fun like we all try certian tricks and if one person lands it b4 someone else we still keep trying...we dont get all hissy fit like we just have fun its sooo great days are like they used to be back when we all sucked hahah its so great im so happy for everyone...

then ryan and adam came and we skated the gap fun time..well after that we went to mama mias and ate food had some fun you know same ol same ol....then we went to kyles and all wrestled kinda, well actually i tried to ride ryan hahah didnt work..

tonight was cool skated up to the manny pad to meet ryan and adam...thgen brian showed up and then this wigger kid with a bench showed up and nose blunted it haha what a fag..i tryed to 50 50 it but no success...brian back 5050d it and nose slid it...then we went to the bank and lets just say the NEW YORKER in ryan came out andf it was freaking funny as hell adam got humped literally....ewww then brian left and the 3 of us went across the street and skated....ryan popped his shoulder out of place and me and adam just laughed but then checked on him he eventually popped it back in then we went back across the street again and goofed around on the ledge thing there it was fun had a blast...

well i skated to ryans today to give him 50 bucks for his fish eye haha yeh its gonna make my camera look sooo nice now especially when i get a light too, and maybe a mic if i can find one

hahah
Emerica9987: my step sister looks like a slat
Emerica9987: she as tons of gross looking make up on
Emerica9987: ewwwwww

i got my fish eye from ryan yes tomorrow i start filming for the new video...yeah it shall be good...

well today i called alex and me him,elvis,kevin,ryan,kenny, and austen all went skating today. kenny died trying this huge gap as usual and stuff so then we all went to gap mania and i finally landed my run....then austen landed his and then kevin did too soo all in all it was a pretty good day/night

last night [20 Jun 2004|12:52pm]
ok so last night from what i remember ryan killed himself on the ymca gap kyle landed it...ryan stuck it which was pretty awesometo see, i was pretty stoned actually i was way stoned heh

well today josh came over and we went got ryan and austen skated chilled skated spencer came over and we skated some moreand yea..filmed a lil bit and me and austen toked up...shhhh then skated and now im home peace out niggaz

yesterday.. i went to the mall with my mom and ryan got tickets to warped tour bitchs haha whoop tasha found out thats her bday gift haha so yeh oh well, ryan stole a sign from dip n dots and put it at barnies coffee hahaha pimp then he stole i shoe from journeys and dropped it off the 2nd floor haha sooo funny and then we met up with jenn and becca it was funny me and becca fought in areo pastel haha greatness then i forget oh we left and found my mom to get the tickets to warped tour bia pimp... Then we left come home and my parents go out me and ryan get 8 bucks from my parents for metro haha cause every one was going up there then we stop by ryans house and his dad actually gave him 10 bucks in was crazy...so we go to stop by winn dixie to mess with kassie and becca haha and we leave but ryan stole all those thank you stickers hahah and we put like 50 all over there trucks it was great hahaha sooo fucking funny i hope shes not mad :-/ but then we went to metro haha great we meet up with paul alex jesse and christine, and the guy at metro let us in for 18 bucks me and ryan both there soo aweseom there its kick ass so we skated there had fun then me and paul went with these 2 other kids to seminole and paul ollied this rail at the bleachers down a set sooo nice haha this other kid did it too....then we went back and goofed off at metro and i came home and dropped off ryan and jesse...

PEACE OUT NIGGAZ....
PARTY AT JOSH'S july 5th...IM me if you need directions hahah
B.Y.O.B.

today was one of the greatest skate days we (josh kyle ryan and myself) have ever had....the video we are making is going to be really great and we are getting footage faster and faster then we would for the other videos...this video is going to be featuring handrail, set, ledges....and much much more i cant wait...and major flip tricks be all..and plus its going to be very good quality....I CANT WAIT....

MONDAY NIGHT- went got tasha and went to the party oh but b4 that me and josh asked these 2 mexicans to buy us beer and they did hahah, then we got tasha and ryan ....so then the party started and we were chilling and shizzle...uhh i got pretty fucked up...and yeah i tripped over stuff but everything is good now...

Today- skated and had a good time whoop whoop me ryan jesse and adam skated and had fun jesse's truck broke and shit so yeah welp im gonna go peace out my shizzles...

Wensday...uhh stayed the night at josh's ryan got into a huge arguement with his dad but w/e i guess heh....

Thursday-went to pipe dreams with josh and ryan..josh bought a new deck and shoes..i stole 2 shirts and ryan got a shirt...so yeah tomorrow i go for my liscence test hopefully i get it heh...so yeah

this fucking sucks one of my many prize posetions (CAMCORDER) is fucking broken is sooo pissed i cant believe it god damnit WTF hole shit man this suck now i have to try anf fix it and if i cant well i dont know if i can get a new one man this fucking sucks ass damnit all the footage i have and i cant use it in the video..let alone watch it WTF THIS SHIT SUCKS MAN DAMNIT FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

well today i chilled to about 2 and met alex up at winn dixie then we skated and went back to my house and then ryan kenny alex and kivin came and got us and we skated like pimps i finally ollied this gay gap hahahah nicly i think but it could have been better..then we went to taco bell and kenny bought me a fucking double soft taco thing it was fucking GREAT...then we skated behind bells and had fun ...but im a lil upset because tasha is upset about somthing and i asked what but i couldnt really hear her because she was mumbling...so yeah welps im gonna go PEACE EASY NIGGAZ

well im getting bored of this haha. but yeh. eric think about this shit. i got jenn and becca back. im getting everyone back, except you. its weird. but think about our times we've had man. youre so dfferent now. think about the catnip and the piano jar, getting drunk as fuck on josh's porch and smoking cloves while calling those girls in the house sluts. tasha was there holding you up. think about seat 666 commander, and think about providence. who was there through everything? me. man, i think about everything and think you are the best friend ive ever had. i wont lie, i talk soo much shit about you and its becuase you are a completely different person now. you used to not give a fuck and now you do. i liked you better when you couldnt ollie up a curb. think about it eric, everything we've been through and whats really important. then next tiem i wanna skate think about why you should jump on the opportunity. well i guess ill leave it at that fuck face. peace. i love you man youre the best.

I had to phone someone so I picked on you ho ho
Hey, that’s far out so you heard him too! o o
Switch on the tv we may pick him up on channel two
Look out your window I can see his light a ight
If we can sparkle he may land tonight a ight
Don’t tell your poppa or he’ll get us locked up in fright

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It's a god-awful small affair
To the girl with the mousy hair
But her mummy is yelling "No"
And her daddy has told her to go
But her friend is nowhere to be seen
Now she walks through her sunken dream
To the seat with the clearest view
And she's hooked to the silver screen
But the film is a saddening bore
For she's lived it ten times or more
She could spit in the eyes of fools
As they ask her to focus on

Sailors fighting in the dance hall
Oh man! Look at those cavemen go
It's the freakiest show
Take a look at the Lawman
Beating up the wrong guy
Oh man! Wonder if he'll ever know
He's in the best selling show
Is there life on Mars?

It's on Amerikas tortured brow
That Mickey Mouse has grown up a cow
Now the workers have struck for fame
'Cause Lennon's on sale again
See the mice in their million hordes
From Ibeza to the Norfolk Broads
Rule Britannia is out of bounds
To my mother, my dog, and clowns
But the film is a saddening bore
'Cause I wrote it ten times or more
It's about to be writ again
As I ask you to focus on

Sailors fighting in the dance hall
Oh man! Look at those cavemen go
It's the freakiest show
Take a look at the Lawman
Beating up the wrong guy
Oh man! Wonder if he'll ever know
He's in the best selling show
Is there life on Mars?

josies on a vacation far away...

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 01:36:37 GMT

well well, i lied about not commenting anymore. i have been in one of my greatest moods ever lately. its probably because fo katie. she makes me happier then anything. but i guess the main focus of my entry tonight would be what i like to call "the dbcc era" aka the middle of my 11th grade year and how i wish it was still here.

well i guess i am gonna have different segments directed to different people cuz im gay and i like to be organized like that.

well im thinking im gonna start it off with "THE SKATE MAFIA". the infamous group that i dreaded for a full year until i hopped the border over here to deadbary. well yeh. i guess ide have to say the first of you whom i settled my differences with were mister finnerty and abbott. i guess i skated with kevin early 11th grade year and he did that insane ollie manual and joined the ol video then kenny soon followed. me and austen were still complete enemies. i guess a few months later i asked austen to be friends and to join the video one night in dleand and weve been pretty much best friends since. you all have helped to ungayify me and turn me into less of a pussy and less of an annoying little fuck then i used to be. we used to skate deland almost every weekend last year, when kenny ollied that 11 and a fisheye wasnt even a part of my vocabulary yet. which leads me to to my next friend...

jennifer beal, my bfs, we have been throguth probably more then ive been throguh with any of my friends. the first time i met you on the bus i saw you as this stunningly beautiful girl who i was suprised was even speaking to me. you told me i had a pretty house, i told you i knew kenny and filmed some sick stuff of him the night before. you told me to come over to your house after school to show you. i was in shock. here is one of the best looking girls ive ever met asking me to come to her house haha. well yeh i skated my little short haired high pitched voice self over to your house and showed you the footage. it was weird. well one night skating in deland you and rebecca were there and i guess rebecca and austen were first beginning to "talk" but ill get back to that later. well yeh. jenn i guess ive fallen in and out of love with you about 5000 times haha, and i guess it has built up what i must say is one of the best friendships ive ever been in and i love you for it. we have been in hundreds of fights, and hundreds of makeups. phone calls until 3 am and you coming to my house everyday to see the video even though you never wanted to always brought us back together. one of the only "hot chicks" ive ever met who has ever accepted a skater as a true friend. looked past the shaggy hair and the sweat and the cursing and saw "us" (kevin kenny austen danny and myself) as good people. our group of friends was one i never saw dying but i guess i was wrong. i would probably throw my camera away to get back what all of us had back then. i honestly nearly cry thinking about it. i love you bfs and i hope things dont get even worse.

well well. BEST HOT KID WHO I LOVE WITH ALL MY HEART! i remember that time we gave eachother the title of bhk. you told me we needed a title to be cool like everyone else and i was like "best fat ugly kid who i hate with all my heart is what you can call me". i was emo then of course haha. and you responded with. "best hot kid who i love with all my heart". bhkwilwamy wasnt really working so we trimmed it to bhk. those were such great times. i remember i tried so many times to get you to date austen. haha, we made wagers and deals. "you get jenn to like me ill do vice versa with austen". it was great. well i guess all i have to say is i always saw you as that girl that i HAD to impress becuase you were so pretty and austen of all people was in love with you. and THEN, AUSTENS SONG came along. :/. well. austen had dedicated his song (your love) to you becuase you had just started dating. he woudld dedicate every trick to you. every trick in shear boredom there was a "this is for becca" before it. ha, it made me so happy to see austen in such a great mood all the time therefore i was loving you for keeping him un-emo. well i guess it all came to an end but i guess all good things dont last for ever. it sucks but you and jenn have moved on since.

i guess i just needed to get that out to the two have always been "the girls of my life" since ive lived in debary. well until this summer atleast. well, now is the emotional part. hmmm, rmember dbcc? and deland? and happy daze? and sneaking out? and stealing the car? and halloween?!?! think about it. do you have that anymore? why not? and can you get it back. i love you two girls and i love you skate mafia kids. i wish i had all you guys back. but i dont. hmmm. i guess i am just gonna end this entry with the most ironic song and the song that was blasted in my room, rebeccas, and on car steros for what i must say was the best school year of my life.

Josie's on a vacation far away
Come around and talk it over
So many things that I wanna say
You know I like my girls a little bit older
I just wanna use your love tonight
I don't wanna lose your love tonight

I ain't got many friends left to talk to
Nowhere to run when im in trouble
You know I'd do anything for you
Stay the night - but keep it under cover

I just wanna use your love tonight
I don't wanna lose your love tonight

Try to stop my hands from shakin'
Somethin' in my mind's not makin' sense
It's been awhile since we've been all alone
I can't hide the way I'm feelin'

As you leave me please would you close the door
and don't forget what I told you
Just 'cause you're right - that don't mean I'm wrong
Another shoulder to cry upon

I just wanna use your love tonight
I don't wanna lose your love tonight
Yeah
I don't wanna lose your love tonight
I just wanna use your love tonight
I don't wanna lose your love tonight
I just wanna use your love tonight
I don't wanna lose your love tonight
lose your love
lose your love
lose your love
yeah
lose your love
I don't wanna lose your love tonight
I don't wanna lose your love tonight
I don't wanna lose your love tonight
I don't wanna lose your love tonight

i love you guys. dbcc forever heh...

i caught you a delicious bass

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 18:35:00 GMT

well well. a turbulant week i must say. alot of skatebaording. the video is coming along greatly. well im just gonna start out by saying that this will probably be my best and longest entry ever. ha, so enjoy. well yeh the video is coming good, showed robbo his part last night and he was liking it. the authority boys got sick footy in deland last night and i need to step up but yeh ill be getting my vx in like 2 weeks so holla at me if you wanna get footy. well yeh i got a jobby at applebee's finally it was great. i had work today and i have work like thurs, fri, sat, and sun from 445-10. good times. well, tonight im gonna go to youth group and chill and shizzle. itll be fun as always. im a vegan now haha its great.

BoogieChick26: bowie and leon=life

so i get to my next subject.
KATIE DUNTON!!!!!!!!!
wanted to make the lj and here it is, she got her won huge section. katie and i are soulmates, we talk on the phone all night about how exactly alike our whole lives have been. good times. well yes, she has got them electric thighs and that ghetto booooooooty. she has a freckle on her tummy and shes great in bed. good stuff.

BoogieChick26: wigwam;-):-*
BoogieChick26: sweetcheeks....
BoogieChick26: haah doo eet i'd feel like a special leon:-)
BoogieChick26: hehe awe smooth talker:-X
BoogieChick26: wow u re-vived the lj!
BoogieChick26: i better be making a daily apperance in it;-) jk jk

she even reads the giving tree!!! wtf thats been my favorite book forever. shes amazing i must say. well yeh tonight i will go to youth group and shes getting a friggin 10 minute long hug and yeh itll be great. so yes. in other news this brings me to the subject of david bowie.

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everyday i endulge myself in the musical stylings of david bowie. he floats my boat even if no water is present. well, ive been a huge fan for a long time and i must admit that i am obsessed. i listen to atleast 10 songs a day. i have a limited addition ziggy stardust poster on my wall too. cuz im little like that. i just thought ide add that little part about david bowie. and he has a lightening bolt on his face. BIG IN THE PANTS!

Ziggy played guitar, jammin' good with Weird and Gilly,
The spiders from Mars, he played it left hand
But made it too far
Became the special man, then we were Ziggy's band

Ziggy really sang, screwed up eyes and screwed down hairdo
Like some cat from Japan, he could lick 'em by smiling
He could leave 'em to hang
Came on so loaded man, well hung and snow white tan

So where were the spiders while the fly tried th break our balls
Just a beer light to guide us
So we bitched about his fans and should we crush his sweet hands?

Ziggy played for time, jiving us that we was voodoo
The kids was just crass. He was the nazz
With God given ass
He took it all too far, but boy could he play guitar

Making love with his ego, Ziggy sucked up into his mind
Like a leper messiah
When the kids had killed the man I had to break up the band

Ziggy Played Guitar

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Someday they won’t let you, now you must agree
The times they are a-telling, and the changing isn’t free
You’ve read it in the tea leaves, and the tracks are on tv
Beware the savage jaw
Of 1984

They’ll split your pretty cranium, and fill it full of air
And tell that you’re eighty, but brother, you won’t care
You’ll be shooting up on anything, tomorrow’s never there
Beware the savage jaw
Of 1984

Come see, come see, remember me?
We played out an all night movie role
You said it would last, but I guess we enrolled
In 1984 (who could ask for more)
1984 (who could ask for mor-or-or-or-ore)
(mor-or-or-or-ore)

I’m looking for a vehicle, I’m looking for a ride
I’m looking for a party, I’m looking for a side
I’m looking for the treason that I knew in ’65
Beware the savage jaw
Of 1984

Come see, come see, remember me?
We played out an all night movie role
You said it would last, but I guess we enrolled
In 1984 (who could ask for more)

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Steel on the skyline
Sky made of glass
Made for a real world
All things must pass
Oo-o
Waiting for something
Looking for someone
Is there no reason?
Have I stared too long?
Oo-o
Oo-o
You say you?ll leave me
And when the sun is low
And the rays high
I can see it now
I can feel it die..........

and with all that said. i think im retiring my lj forever..... bye

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 02:32:46 GMT

well today was crazy. uhm, i waited for shannon and erin to get here so we could go out to dinner for my day after birthday. well we went and picked eric up, then on the way to olive garden eric freaked out and we ended up going home. i called erin a hoe and crap then my dad freaked out and beat the crap out of my and i was like about to move out. my dad totally overreacted. so then i came in and we settled down. my mom got here to pick me up and kathy was being a bitch so i put her in her place ryan style. well then me and shannon and adam went to the movies and picked eric up and we went to olive garden. so yeh then we ate alot and then me and eric skated to the movies for a bit. then derrick drove me home and here i am. fun stuff.

BME clique niggaz

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 02:11:16 GMT

well well. havent updated lately cuz of that gay storm. well im chillin. just got done hanging with jenna all day. good stuff. talking to katie about porno. thats about all. comment so i have something to get online about hoes. peace.